I have found peace deep inside
where all my answers try to hide
During times when all I could do was cry
and all of those times I would never try
Feeling was something I forced myself to do
when I held you close and told you I loved you
Follow the long rivers my tears have made
leading to a time starting to fade
Passageways that lead almost to to nowhere
a place that had taught me to never care
In and out of my life almost everyday
people come and go and they never stay
Light and dark, good and evil, they're all the same
where my demons always possess the same name
Hatred over love is what I came to know
and a happy child's smile I could never show
The coldness of my own should I did not feel
numb from the life I acquired in the deal
I close my eyes to find comfort in my despair
to come to realize life is never fair
Life to death, sadness to happiness
the only answer to my distress
The future should brighten the darkest past
but the light is vanishing way too fast
I have put myself on numbered days
my life is over in many ways
With my first breath death was granted
already seeds of suicide were planted
Dancing with dreams of knives and guns
watching them over and over like reruns
I had an understanding that I must die
and when the time came I knew I would not cry

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