There must be something wrong with me. I can count my friends on one hand but I cannot count the number of people I hate. Some of these people I hate for good reason while others I have no rational explanation for. A lot of them are people I have had no interaction with but I see daily.

So what causes this irrational hatred for people? I am unsure. It is probably some sort of psychosis that has yet to be diagnosed. It doesn't make any sense to me yet I find it completely normal. Here are a couple of examples of the people I hate.

I ride a shuttle from Union Station to the building I work in. On this shuttle rides a woman. This woman irritates the living hell out of me and I can't stand her. She comes across as one of those people who thinks she is high and mighty due to her station in life. She is obviously successful and probably overcame a lot of challenges to be successful. But she seems to throw it into people's faces that she is successful. If I have to hear about her vacations and her shopping excursions one more time I may throw her out of the window into oncoming traffic.

Another example is on the train I ride. There is a guy that every time I look at him I want to punch him in the face. This one really has no reason. His face just begs to be punched but I doubt others feel the same when they look at him. He has never said anything to me, he has never done anything but yet I can't stand him.

There are more examples but I don't have enough time in the day to go through them all. Plus you all would get bored reading about my bizarre hatred for people I don't know.

Sometimes I wonder if I am picking up on something subconsciously about these people and it makes me not like them. It could be possible but that makes this even more weird. The rest of the time I am convinced I am deranged for having these feelings.

This probably works into the reason why I don't have many friends. There are days when I desperately wish I had more friends but most of the time I am cool with my introvertness. What is one to do? Most people end up disappointing you in one way or another. The friends I do have are good ones. The type of friends you would be stupid to screw up with. But finding new ones of that caliber is exhausting and time consuming. What sucks about the friends I have is they do not live close to me. One lives in another state. One I see occassionally for lunch since he works fairly close to me. Another I work with but that is as far as it goes. Another factor is I suck at dealing with people which is why I don't work in an industry where I deal with people. I deal with machines, I understand them better than people.

So am I psychotic or just your typical introvert? That is the question.