Loneliness has settled in
I cannot cope with this endless feeling
It rips at my soul
It tears my heart to shreds
I feel so alone
even in a crowded room
I have many friends
but that doesn't help
People say that God can help me
but He didn't
I have heard of people dying
of this empty feeling
I don't want that happening to me
What can I do
to save my dying soul
Maybe death is the answer
but suicide is eternal hell
Oh please anyone save me
before my soul withers away

Life used to be fun
but not anymore
I used to go out with my friends
but now all I do is sit in the darkness of my room
I used to call girls on the phone
but now all I want to do is die
I used to go out to the movies
but now all I do is watch the darkness engulf me
I used to go to the Lord's House
but now I know longer believe
I used to talk to my parents
but now I can't even look at them
I used to like life
but now eternal rest seems better
I used to love
but now hate is my only emotion
I used to never be depressed
but now it runs my life

I sit in the cold darkness of my room
like I have many times before
since all happiness has left me
The darkness is all I have
The pure black hate that flows in my veins
All I want is the darkness
and I know how to get it
I know what happens when I get what I want
but I really don't care anymore
since all love has left me
I sit on my floor in the dimness
with a cold gun in my hands
music playing softly in the background
The gun promises me what I want
and I want it bad
I don't think I can live anymore
since all joy has left me
I am alone wherever I go

I close my eyes to hide from the painful tragedies life gives me
I hide in the darkness of my room praying for the strength to take my own tormented life
I only ask one thing from you Father
Please save my lost and damned soul

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as i stared into the wall
i saw death and corruption
as i stared into the wall
i saw sin and hell

as i stared into the wall
i saw the good and the bad
as i stared into the wall
i saw my own wretched life

as i stared into the wall
i swallowed the fatal pill
i closed my eyes forever
as i stared into the wall

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